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Ayuta

______ Say, It Might Be The Right Thing Hi I am Ayuta.
You can call me Eh. But i won't respond.
I hate it when people say 'only noobs and nerds join concert/symphonic band'
I am a band geek
and i want a ukelele.
and YAMI RULEzzzzzz. (Y)
and this,

:8| is a smiling pig.

unreasonable or unfair or just plain ignorant?

12.8.10 ( 8:14:00 PM )

hello there readers.

once i settled down for morning assembly, i knew that today wasn't going to get any better.

the humidityness in the parade square which resulted in non-stop sweat all over me.

the draggy morning announcements and noisy bunch of noisy people.

it all sums up to an attitude girl version of me.

you know the one who always murmurs vulgar under her breath and the one that gives everyone a look which makes you feel like just slapping the face and the one that gets annoyed whenever someone talks to her.

yeah that kind of me took over this morning.

the test was actually okay.

no seriously. it was okay.

but just that, the quick revision or should i say explanation he gave us just won't absorb into my brain.

there was nothing else i could do but just give up.

i know its bad but like i said, today wasn't going to get any better.

i was prepared for whatever that was gonna happen actually.

mind you, i stressed myself out there looking at the two horrible questions and i almost cried but i didn't.

well, no one knew how hard i studied for that bloody test.

i'm fricking tired of looking at single digit results.

i'm tryin very hard to improve here.

oh so i've no initiative?

damn it, its time that i don't have.

i only realised that i couldn't solve such problems on that worksheet like, i dunno..

WEDNESDAY?

tell me, did i have the time to apply my act of initiative on that day?

i've done your work in class.

well some i didn't and that's because i wasn't in school.

isn't trying to learn by myself is some kind of initiative?

no?

what about staying late at night cracking my brains.

what about tearing my eyes open in the morning to continue revising?

still no?

now the thing is, why you treating me like i'm some kind of a rebellious student in your class.

i'm kinda confused about that.

but its okay,

its such a waste of time to crack my brain over THAT matter.

and yes i was really angry. sad. dissapointed. pissed.

alhamdullilah dengan berzikir aku menjadi lebih tenang.

but then another teacher pissed me off.

and i just felt like flipping my desk right at him.

no seriously that was how i felt and was actually part of my intentions just now.

flipping tables might just be a great and satisfying thing to do when you're pissed or angry or sad.

i used to flip tables, back when i was an immature little girl.

i was so pissed by my primary school friend that i flipped my desk.

i'm not quite sure if i actually flipped it or ALMOST flipped it.

but i knew that the desk went quite far away from me.

but i'm a grown up now.

better make a good image of myself right?

and not get myself into trouble.

sigh

after so long, my violin actually made my day today.

practising my current song and playing the old songs just makes me feel like i'm a pro (cheychey)

but seriously, it feels so goood.

you know what, i guess these concert pieces or orchestra music actually makes me feel better.

if you think my sense of music is lame, please, in my opinion, you have no actual sense of music.

maybe, listening to my SYF piece for next year might make me feel even better?

i'll go for it man.

thanks hbp for tryna cheer me up just now.

but damn it, its just hard for me to cheer up once something makes me angry.

so anyways,

I'M TRYING TO SELL A LOADS OF TICKETS FOR THE

JUNIOR BAND FESTIVAL

Venue : Paya Lebar Methodist Girls' School (secondary)

Time : 7 pm

Date : 28th August 2010

Bands taking part : Punggol Sec

Bedok Green Sec

Deyi Sec

Boon Lay Sec

-Tickets cost $10 each. -Free seating

please do come and support our boon lay band. (and other bands too)

contact me at msn; jazzanova_95@hotmail.com if you are interested in buying a ticket.

adios amigos